You begin as a dimensionless point in the eternal potential. The universe then supplies the energy of sexuality and dynamism. As Castaneda’s Don Juan explains, the eagle is not really an eagle, but a huge hovering energy.
The process of growth is always a helix or a spiral. When the helix encounters you or the point, it replicates the point to where it appears as death as it loses its individuality and its uniqueness.
Initiates must grasp the paradox. When the paradox is resolved, you have gained awareness. Paradox is the clue to the next level upward. That is the road to enlightenment.
Collect yourself and explode.